Quote: "My intention in this post is not to hijack the thread or talk about me me me but to assure you (and possibly myself) that I am not a monster"

Animal welfare is very important to me, but I am a meat-eater and you're doing "the dirty work" I don't have to.
It would be intensely hypocritical if I held that against you.
Your views and experience are an enrichment to a thread like this.